Emotional roller coaster

So those of you who know me, this will come to no surprise!  I am a mess when it comes to the subject of going back to work. I love RD work and I am at the point to where I really want a job.  I've been off for 2+ years.  Then there is the part that feels guilty for leaving my children in someone elses care.  Oh the emotional struggle.

Last week I decided instead of complaining that I don't have a job (outside the home), I would volunteer one morning a week in Austin's class.  I started this week and it was so much fun!  I helped with math, English and reading. Austin is in a combined class of 1st, 2nd & 3rd graders, so I just shuffled between the grades.    It felt good to help out and to spend some time with Austin.  Evan does go to daycare for the 3 hrs I'm at school, but on day #1 he fussed because I picked him up. Go figure.

I also decided to watch my friends little girl Claire 2 days a week.  It would give me some extra spending money, Evan would have a friend to play with & it would break up my week of doing housework and laundry.  She is a quiet, sweet little thing and so far doesn't seem like any extra work at all.

Then.......the phone rang this morning.  It was a renal dietitian announcing her resignation and asking me if I'm still interested in the job!  (note: this happened last June and she changed her mind)  I was excited....scared...nervous...confused all at the same time. I had just figured out some new activities and was ready to embark on a busy fall/winter.

Stay tuned.  I don't want to jump ahead.  I haven't even gotten an interview yet, let alone the job. But I'm a planner and don't like surprises.  I like to follow through on my promises and obligations. Is there anyway I can do it all ???? :)

Evan sporting Claire's sun glasses

 

 

This last month we got the Madras rental painted.  It went from a faded dark green to a brand new shiny Gray!